9/8/09

what's left is only a numb and vague feeling

Bloody mother tired.
Left my house around 1ish and cabbed to far east. Most of the shops were closed so we headed to wisma/ion/heeren etc. Took neos :) Walao sia lah the neos we take today is like super speed one, no time to think of poses one. Hahha. Nut saw her favourite old woman, she was damn happy hmm? :) LOL.
Went to fep. Sat down and i ate my late lunch at around 4pm? Gosh, i need to stop eating my lunch so late, i'm having stomachaches whenever food enters my mouth :( Shopped aorund...and to our big disappointment it was seriously boring. Like no cltohes like that leh?!?!?! Wtf. All the shops selling the same stuff. Yawn. Only bought a nice tank top, and that's all. And i came out with the intention of going back home with a few bags of clothes. Sigh.. :(

But i saw a osf sequin cropped top that i likey!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's damn chio. But think it will look weird on me, so i'm not buying it! :D!

K back to my day:
Our legs were hurting like HELL. It was living hell. Ok blah blah cut the crap, i managed to not take a cab back home today. yay!!!!!! Achievement :)

Sian. Tmr need to go out again. F**k. Ccb. Tuition -.- Nah beh i dont wanna go. Mmh.
HOLIDAYS SUCK. To.the.max.



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GAHHHHHH FAT LEGS.
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Nice song nice song! :) so damn meaningful.
 

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl'in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
the way you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
the way you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted this

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things i didnt do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
'Till I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hands
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away" just make a smile
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How could you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.

Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

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